What do I need?

​I'm an enigma even to myself, what am I still searching for? Granted I am young and there is still time to find it. But that is the curse of one who thinks too much.  I feel as if I have grown some, mayhaps even became a bit stronger.  It is as if I am in a young body.. with an old and weary soul.  Now I see how the Dunedain  must feel.  But of course I am nothing like them,  I'm Cassiah.  Just Cassiah, I try to like it that way.  Yes try, because if I become something more if I change too much.. will I lose myself?  Perhaps I am over thinking again.  But I'm always searching, always watching and always waiting.  When an opportunity arises I will not hesitate to leap.  Life is an ongoing road.